My life up to now has been…well kinda boring with moments of ‘Awe’ then one day it took a turn when my sister Kelly introduced me to her book club. Now every other week I am surrounded by the most amazing women…and James, that I have ever met. Thus began my awareness of who I am and how I fit into this chaotic world.
In order to move forward I need to take a peek into the past..not to relive that which I can not change but to have an awareness of my own patterns. With this knowledge I’ll know what hasn’t worked for me and what I didn’t take seriously..this is what I’ve found.
1. I am a Procrastinator– This is with everything from money to my health, you name it. Even waiting to start this journey I can up with thoughts that stop me before I get started. Not enough time or money, don’t want to do this alone and I’ll start when Integrity launches….blah blah blah
2. I don’t Trust– Huge wall here. doesn’t matter whether it’s people or new ideas and concepts. I don’t want to get hurt and/or end up at the airport selling carnations. Which leads me to
3. Fear— The ole I’ll wait for someone else to try it first, then maybe, just maybe if no one makes fun of them than I’ll try it too. Who taught me to be so guarded, so fearful. When did this lesson penetrate to my very core?
That was then—-this is NOW!
Looking back I came up with the 3 areas that keep me from being my authentic self. This is the year I am putting myself ‘out there’ and being accountable to…well me. I will no longer procrastinate on any level or area of my life. I will be open to new people and ideas. I will no longer let fear dictate my life. My journey starts now knowing that I am worthy of all that life has to offer. I will begin squeaky clean by detoxing to flush the out the toxins and will end at the Linden, MI FirstTry Triathlon. I invite you to join me on my journey.
My Holistic Universe 